Die Wolves

And the snow is falling so cold on my weary limbs,
white flakes dancing before my eyes
me and obscure the view,
as infinite-
as white-
 
the wind pushes me to the song of wolves,
foments my fear
how far I have strayed from the path?
Where should I go?
 
And yet it takes me straight,
into the forest,
into the unknown,
the body is very stiff and numb,
 
I can feel their eyes on my neck,
it will not be long,
they feel quite clear
and I fight,
but that I did not want to live,
 
I can not wait for them to come,
I must go on,
even if there is no one,
even if everything is pointless
even if this is a dead man,
 
I go as long as I can breathe,
so I feel nothing more,
do not feel like they come from,
as they bite into me,
tear me and my meat eating
but that's ok,


still better than becomming a feast for the worms to eat,
I´ll become a part of this pack?
I do not know, but it's a nice thought-
but still it is not yet as far as I´m still not lying in the snow,
still I run ... I run ... run ... run with pain.

Mischa

I hear this melody
she sings very softly ...


I longed to be with you;


But it's just a thought,
for you have never breathed,


your heart was weak and ill,

you lay in my hands small and cold,


no red flooded your soft cheeks,

and yet how many times I saw your face?


Why your laugh sounds in my ears?


I stand 5 feet above you and look down on you

on what is left

who visits you still here?

Who else is with you in mind?


My heart is very heavy and my longing,

much more,

how I wish you were still here


not even your name is written here

as if you´d never been.


Mischa, oh my dearest Mischa ...

Armand ...live!

Alive


All her bones are broken,

the pieces have torn the skin into pieces,

now she is ashamed of all that they once had

full of life they believe in the future,

believes that nothing was written,

it burns full life

and she believes

that they can change their fate

she knows what it means to cry out in hunger

the hunger for life

on the precipice they'll go

tear to the last breath of life itself

and then to throw it into the Abyss

At the end of life

at each moment

in all the rest

she has promised to take me

deep in the maze of nostalgia

I'm here and shout it out loud

LIFE IT LAST

who can hear me at all.

LIVE!

Through the Darkness

Through the darkness
should we burn,
we all burn
bleeding in the rain of our souls,
their pain to be rinsed away.

Where are you Lord in heaven? 
Wherever I go
everywhere is mourning
it is in my heart-

and they must also!

I crawling in my pain,
will break under your gentleness,
but wherever you go,
you know I´ll go to follow you
where you may lay you down-

I'm already there!

Do you know my pain,
who wants to break out everything from me?

You know him and yet you do not care,
whithersoever I go,
You are with me,
and see just ...

see how to burn my soul.
And the blood of my body, my soul,
dries me out Completely restructured,
so there´s nothing more in me ...

a shell of flesh and bone,
only food for the worms.

A Dream

Ever dreamt about how everything is gonna end?

To kill yourself - in a dream?

Rip yourself out to the bones,

feeling relief from falling apart,

holding your breathe until your last one is fading out,

can´t you stop me from feeling my suicidal dream?

But don´t worry you will get yours too.

My Heart

You tear my heart to you,

to guard it,

and rip at will,

in the cold rain we danced,

lived under the tears of angels

but when Hera's heat flowed through you,

I was surrounded of the night,

and then when you walked;


you took with you my soul.

Forgive

My heart is wandering

flowing in the dust

i will never ask much

i will fuck you to swim

in your silk

did you really believe my lies?

Forgive

my walls are crushing down

can you feel my insecure love

is lingering inside

with the shade I tried to take

so bright I can´t look

in these eyes

let go

can´t you try to walk in my shoes?

forgive

I will never kiss your tears

I will guide the blind in darkness

but don´t want to feel myself

forgive

no hope for the hopeless

forgive

nothing more to say