Memory of 2003...die Bridge

In 2003, someone jumped from the Highway bridge on the Beethovenstr ... I left this poem there:

Here it is cold and oh so still
no name,
because I am silent,
because I want it so
now everything is swallowed,
every thought,
of holding on to you,
in your eyes,
cold and so empty
I was lost and the snow was my sea,
I scream,
but you won´t hear me-
How long until I can breathe again?
And we fall into nothingness,
because this world is without you,
like a life without light.

Inspired by "Do not Jump" by TH. It was not there long. Someone took it with him. Therefore, I share it again today ... with you.

I saw you

It´s been hours since I saw you sitting there,

you´re soaking wet from the rain,

but you´re sitting there while watching

the train´s go by,

you´re waiting for the next to come,

will you take the next one?

Are you waiting for someone who will never come?

You´re watching the people leaving and coming,

they are moving, they have a target,

but you´re sitting still.

You´ll never get on a train.

There won´t be someone for you to come.

You don´t mind.

You don´t give a fuck, about the goals of other peoples life.

Losing you

All this pain I felt,

pulled my knees to the ground,

but I never lost my love to you,

it´s so bitter,

the taste of love floating down my troat,

and I don´t have an option,

the path is at it´s edge.

I want my scars to fade,

to leave my pain and yours,

let me run to the sound of broken hearts.

Let me the lie. A beautiful lie. 

Tell me...you loved me.

Black

Your lost love is dying,

in your arms,

why do you care?

Let yourself drown in the blood,

until everything is gone,

and your love is burried to the ground.

Tear us apart

So when all the memories are fading to grey,

let all the dreams pass by,

turn and never look back again,

if the room is gettin´ cold,

let old Ghosts diseaper.

Even if the tears still falling down,

even if it tasted good,

now it will tear us apart,

an end is coming to it all,

we were born to fall apart.

May tomorrow never come again.

Damon Salvatore

I´m fallen between all defenses,

how can I face my failures,

when all my desires seem to track me down,

wanting, waiting for my solution,

please let me run away-

there´s no place for me,

not here.

Here where my past is hunting me,

even now I am suffering while I´m looking in your eyes,

and I see him looking back to me,

you can´t see me - even if you wanted to,

it´s rotting inside me,

I´ll never taste your lips pushing down on me.

No more struggling,

you defeated me,

you brought me down on my knees,

but you´ll never know,

You don´t have to,

as long as I know I truly love you.

Die Wolves

And the snow is falling so cold on my weary limbs,
white flakes dancing before my eyes
me and obscure the view,
as infinite-
as white-
 
the wind pushes me to the song of wolves,
foments my fear
how far I have strayed from the path?
Where should I go?
 
And yet it takes me straight,
into the forest,
into the unknown,
the body is very stiff and numb,
 
I can feel their eyes on my neck,
it will not be long,
they feel quite clear
and I fight,
but that I did not want to live,
 
I can not wait for them to come,
I must go on,
even if there is no one,
even if everything is pointless
even if this is a dead man,
 
I go as long as I can breathe,
so I feel nothing more,
do not feel like they come from,
as they bite into me,
tear me and my meat eating
but that's ok,


still better than becomming a feast for the worms to eat,
I´ll become a part of this pack?
I do not know, but it's a nice thought-
but still it is not yet as far as I´m still not lying in the snow,
still I run ... I run ... run ... run with pain.