The Pain I Felt All This Time

Hold me, I can´t bear to sleep,
these cold eyes in the dark,
keep staring at me,
they grab me, feel me up,
won´t let me be.

Why did he have to choose me,
Why couldn´t he let me be ?

I keep asking you but you just said,
Why didn´t you fight, what did you do ?

Nothing, I keep telling you.
I was stare, how often do I need to tell you ?

He was hunting me. Forcing me.
Grabbing me. Pushing and whispering.

There is nothing you can do. Just give in. It´s just a kiss.
It´s just a touch. And I kept running. Avoiding.

Until he stands before me. Until barely covered in a bathrobe.
He is pushing onto me - pulling on my robes and only a bell is saving me.

That´s the day, she could see, that was the day she couldn´t ignore it anymore.

Misty Mountains The last of the Mohicans

The Wind is floating around the misty mountain,
the echos of voices are flowing up,
her hair is being pulled through the trees,
a shot, a fall, her eyes turn to coal,
hands are pulling on her, pulling her up,
dragging her to move forward,
dark unknowing eyes look at her,
but she is out of reach,
she moves closer to the edge,
the wind is blowing in her hair that almost glows golden in the sun,
one more step she does,
there is no sound, nothing more than the crumbling of her clothes.
And she is gone.

Fields of golden Dreams - T.W.H.

Love is a truth that will scare the darkest clouds away,
it will clean you to the deepest parts of your soul,
I was once so blind,
Love is indeed the only treasure,
The sky was so dark I couldn´t see what was right in front of me,
but your voice turned them all away,
now my vision is full of the brightest blue,
and even the sun has turned it´s burning coal,
what once burned is now soathing my withered soul,
your smile is the taste of the field I failed to see,
a field of golden dreams.

Shared Nights

When your eyes drop
and the silence turns a wall on me,
What can I say to come through ?

If you were hurt
don´t turn on me,
tell me the darkest secrets of your heart,

I won´t turn away,
I won´t leave you there,
I´m in love

And when the clouds crash down on you
and the whole world would turn on you
I am here for you
I will see you through

I´m just so tired of your meanless lies
Just stop
I can see through the tears you drop
My heart will never stop

 I won´t turn away,
I won´t leave you there,
I´m in love

What was everything

In the distance between a fallen leave and a dropping tear,
my mind was drowning in the cold mud,
why was everything so dark - so suddenly,
I know I felt independend
She gave me all she could
but I was so deep
I could see her pain
walking on broken glass
while the sun was warming everything

What did I say ?
The thoughts were spinning
quicker than blood rushing through my vains
All our love turned my world to black
what was the thing I called mine once upon a time ?

I know some cruel day you´ll be someone elses God
But Why ?

Mine Edge

Here we stand
stand on line
the shames of Rome
Caius told us to mend and charge home
we look to it

Make us quick in work
we put our shields before our hearts
and we fight with hearts more prove than shield
souls of geese that bear the shapes of men

By the fires of heaven
Charge Home

Inspiration: Coriolanus by W. Shakespeare

The Deep Blue Sea

Under softly windy dreams
lies the deep blue sea
it seems so still and qiet

but underneath it lies my wrecked heart
soft and cruel
so tender and blue

leave me here
I will freeze under the warmest sea
lonely without you

hold me dear
hold me close
melting under summerrain

remember I once belonged to me
now I´m fallen under silver leaves
craving for arms to hold me warm

Inspiration: The Deep Blue Sea

Fish

Beneath the bridge
cramped in leaves and ash
dripping from the seal of broken glass

Am I just a fish
without any feelings ?

I am trapped
crashed my human hands
like a piece of trash

Am I just a fish
without any feelings ?

Heavy Rain

Standing in the mud,
crawling through the mist,
the screams of dying, crying men
flowing through the air,
once more they run,
once more they throw themselves against the breach,
under growling thunder of the night,
while limbs of legs and bones,
crack beneath their dirty feet,
running towards pain and honor,
thowing their bodies into waiting swords,
here on the field of Azincourt.

Dark Cities

Dark Cities from marble,
dead and cold,
how long did I drink from you
feeding into your dreams
and danced in your misty threads,
of your oh so beloved phantastic foams.

Armand´s Sun

Have not you thought
this death would quietly go over,
this grace in thy light has now passed,
the swaths of dark waves,
are now lost in the sun.


Has thou not heard the screams,
burned under your pure white skin?


This ocean is now flowing into you,
until you're stuffed all the torments
that were once passed,
the time is past, the rain evaporates,
and the dead flesh is enough,
everything is finished and nothing starts the New,
in this slump of needles and rocks.


Gone is the sweetness of the night,
fully the tyranny of your pity, I feel nothing.


But thou shalt breathe, shall live, covet,
the end of my torment,
your existence shall be my proof
life is possible
to breathe when you break the chest,
take your leave,
morning and see me again,
between the words unspoken,
you do not dare to speak.

Stranded

In the here stranded,
between the worlds altogether,
that are not mine,
I want between your world
that keeps me ready for the hate,
and full of pain,
Decide?
Still I creep across their borders,
to the realm of death drawn
I dance in the dead of my time.

Our Song

Our song died away,
as the candle was extinguished in the fall of rain,
what have you done?
Where are you wearing your heart 
before it was tomorrow?
 
Can you feel the cold,
I stay in until you're back with me?
Without you nothing old ends;
and nothing new start.

Der Grudge

Dead running on my eyelids,
the faces white and pale,
the cheeks are sunken,
pine and no one is there,
Please turn around,
no more blood dripping on my feet,
let me live,
only this one time,
I'll break your oath,
you prepare your last supper,
that you are milling from my bones.

Memory of 2003...die Bridge

In 2003, someone jumped from the Highway bridge on the Beethovenstr ... I left this poem there:

Here it is cold and oh so still
no name,
because I am silent,
because I want it so
now everything is swallowed,
every thought,
of holding on to you,
in your eyes,
cold and so empty
I was lost and the snow was my sea,
I scream,
but you won´t hear me-
How long until I can breathe again?
And we fall into nothingness,
because this world is without you,
like a life without light.

Inspired by "Do not Jump" by TH. It was not there long. Someone took it with him. Therefore, I share it again today ... with you.

I saw you

It´s been hours since I saw you sitting there,

you´re soaking wet from the rain,

but you´re sitting there while watching

the train´s go by,

you´re waiting for the next to come,

will you take the next one?

Are you waiting for someone who will never come?

You´re watching the people leaving and coming,

they are moving, they have a target,

but you´re sitting still.

You´ll never get on a train.

There won´t be someone for you to come.

You don´t mind.

You don´t give a fuck, about the goals of other peoples life.

Losing you

All this pain I felt,

pulled my knees to the ground,

but I never lost my love to you,

it´s so bitter,

the taste of love floating down my troat,

and I don´t have an option,

the path is at it´s edge.

I want my scars to fade,

to leave my pain and yours,

let me run to the sound of broken hearts.

Let me the lie. A beautiful lie. 

Tell me...you loved me.